Don't admit your dimness just because you see others shining. Don't lose heart. Continue to work hard. Everyone will have their own shining moment.
Your task now is to study hard and enrich yourself, not to worry about time. You shouldn't feel that time passes like a year. In fact, time really passes quickly. There are things to be completed every day. You should believe that what you work hard will have an answer one day in the future.
There is no need to let others know your plan. Everyone has his own pace of life. You just need to work hard to become a very powerful person, so powerful that one day you can leave those circles and people who make you uncomfortable at any time.
You constantly seek learning methods from others. You tell yourself to counter attack in your heart. You are secretly determined to win, but you have been degenerate and do not act. Is this what you want?
Play, study and grow up. Release goodwill when needed, be tough when necessary, find what you love, find someone worthy of love, and then go all out for them.
I thought the days of hard support were boundless. I seemed to have entered a dead end. I had no direction and could not find an exit. But when I sank down and tried to change, I turned into the person I wanted to be.